sparkignitefire

While I am striving to sit down everyday and write…..it does not always go to plan.

Thank you for waiting.

Today, I feel a little like I’ve been to a 12-step meeting. Grateful and hopeful. My life has had many people in the program and am truly glad it’s there. It really works. Like getting back to your family, your roots, your people. I personally do not grapple with the meaning of family. It’s who I love, who is in my world, who I choose. Just like nature, the tide comes in and the tide goes out…always changing.

My oldest daughter was standing a few feet away from me last night and I made the mental note to move the pants she was wearing to the younger childs drawer. Then I realized that she had grown 3 inches in what seemed like over night. My husband, my daughters, my small circle of friends and mentors…they are my family for now. They are in my world.

It’s one of those days that you ask yourself, okay…..have I gotten the message yet? If I haven’t the clothes-lining will continue. There is a rawness that happens when you are up against the ropes for so long. The backs of your arms and thighs develop blisters. They smart. The beauty of the body is the endorphins that kick in and reduce the pain and pressure. This is for a little while, then it cannot keep up. Eventually you feel them again.

It’s pretty raw today.

Go with it, some days it’s like this. Sometimes there is a string…….a long string of them together. That’s tough.

So, today, I’ll let it sit.