going with it__________March 27, 2012


The cells are humming. They are changing…slowly, with care and love. It’s the next plane. The next level, a little bit more knowledge. It seems to be okay when things are heavy. I love that saying, “he’s not heavy, he’s my brother”. Heavy is okay. Heavy is hard and your muscles shake and you sometimes … Continue reading

if there ever was______March 22, 2012


The house is coming along. We were without internet for a couple of weeks and it actually helped my focus on getting organized, painting, cleaning, sorting…….more cleaning, painting and tomorrow, don’t laugh I will attempt to hang wallpaper. My answer for most things is to watch a YouTube video on it. Thank God for a … Continue reading

I love you


This is in response to those hundreds that have read an ‘Open Letter to those that choose that moment’. There is a part of me that is slightly shocked at how many……daily read this open letter and secretly very happy. After my father decided June 22nd, 1995 to end his pain in this world and … Continue reading

Surfacing____________March 17, 2012


Being underwater and seeing the sunlight at the surface. Having one more load of laundry to do. The one last item on your list. Seeing the summit and knowing how long it will take to get there. Being at peace with the death of friends, a job, what you used to be…..seeing the surface. Anticipation … Continue reading

It’s all we have_________March 8,2012


Cancer free. Its a 6 month, 2 year, 10 year ….clean marker, or when you’ve done everything you can and it’s time to let go. We hear it often—-‘live each day as if it were your last’ or ‘tell them you love them, you may never see them again’. So often it is lip service. … Continue reading

You are everywhere___________March 4, 2012


I lost a dear friend to colon cancer today. She was 45, a mom, a wife and an incredible fighter. She laughed all the time. I can hear her laugh right now. She started her journey home and will now be forever in the flowers, the wind, the sunshine and when we do good things. … Continue reading