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Could not help it. Loved the name, Afterburner. David has a tree in his name. Nyssa Sylvatica….Afterburner Tupelo. It’s stunning. Look it up.

I recently reconnected with a dear friend. She’s one of those people you can hear their laugh in your head. It’s distinct and precious. So often I think that the ebb and flow of friendships is tough. Yes, it would be nicer and easier if we just kept the same people we liked and called it a day. External and sometimes internal pressure causes time away or maybe even a time out. At 41 I am still learning that does not mean you are done being friends, it was just a break….not a  break up.

Remember I told you about the 3+ year fog….so lovingly renamed the cocoon? Those years were lean pickings for people of substance. They existed in my head, sometimes on paper and even fewer in real life. The ones that have come through to the light/butterfly stage are glory. They will not get rid of me that easy. What is lovely is I have been able to circle back (remember I said I would circle back for you when you were ready, just let me know) and put those incredible people of my life back in my boat. It’s not  luxury cruise ship yet, and I adore and am so humbled by their ability and generosity to sail with me in my leaky…bare bones boat. A real fixer-upper. They are helping me right my boat…..find the horizon again. People that are part of your cellular structure don’t care if you are a work in progress. Turn the tables, I adore those that can wear even a smidgen of their heart on their sleeve. It makes them real. It makes them lovable. So why can’t I see that for myself?

Today, I told my kids about Dr King. The girls are 3 and just 5. I started out with lofty and ridiculous verbiage, reciting the ‘I have a dream’ speech……I looked in the rear view mirror and they were both staring at me with blank looks. So I said, he talked to a lot of people and asked them to be nice to each other, asked them to be nice to themselves, even if someone is not nice to you. The older one, Gladys, said, ‘I can do that mom’. Those people of substance……one is age 3 and one is age 5.

You know when I mentioned that we need people around us. Preferably ones that are smarter than we are and have a different skill set. This is important……it is said we are the sum total of the five people we spend time with. It’s harsh if those are stoners and energy suckers. We all have them. When will you be important enough to let go of the stale bread?

Stay here. Breathe………stay here. The moment will pass and you can begin again.